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Hey guys, I have a confession to make:

I'm addicted to the internet.

Now, I know this may sound silly, but I'm completely serious. I have a serious addiction. I spend more time on here then with my family. That's a big problem for me because I really love them, no matter how much I've complained about them.
I've also been depressed for the last 3 or so months, enough to where I have purposefully harmed/injured myself. I've been doing it a lot more then I've told anyone. I'm sorry for worrying those of you who knew and those who are just finding out from this.
I have yet to tell my parents about this, but I'm going to tonight- that's why I'm making this journal.
My addiction has gotten so bad that I've prioritized it over my schoolwork. I'm probably going to drop one of my classes because of it. I'd rather drop one then focus so much on raising my grade for it that I ignore my others. I'm really scared to tell my parents that, but I've already decided to do it.
I'm going to delete this account in a few days. I'll probably delete my Twitter and Tumblr as well. I won't be on Skype either. At least until this term is over.
I am aware that this is completely my fault for letting it get this bad, but these are the actions that I'm taking.



Even if I delete this account, you can find me at:
Skype: Sekkeki
Youtube: www.youtube.com/user/Sekkeki?f…
(If I don't delete these)
Twitter: twitter.com/Sekkeki
Tumblr: sekkeieieikaiekiekieaekie.tumb…
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if you feel like you should delete this account, go ahead and do it. by admitting that you spend to much time on the internet and saying that you want to change it is really powerful of you. depression can be a difficult thing to deal with and sometimes we may use the internet as a place to deal with the depression. in some cases it can be a good thing. but most of the time people use it as a the coping mechanism avoidance/escapism.

a few years ago when i was in a strong depression and anxiety I tried to use the internet as a way to escape my life and problems, and school. at that time i had attempted suicide and was taken to the hospital and stayed in a adolescent ward. while i was there i met many very nice people who had it worse off than i had. there was a very sweet girl there who suffered from schizophrenia who shared friendship with me. when i was there i learned different ways to deal with my stress and school. i found that talking to people was the best way for me to deal with my anxiety. and for you, since your family is very important to you, talking to them may be a really good idea.

i understand the fear of confronting your parents and telling them what has happened and how your grades have slipped. i've been in that position before. but let me tell you, once i did tell them and we addressed the problem, i felt so so so much better. i felt like a giant bolder of stress and been removed from my back. and i realize that spending too much time on the internet had in fact been overly distracting and disruptive to my grades. at that time my parents also put the gaming console away, only to be taken out durin break. my parents also put a limit on my computer time and hours, that way i wouldn't be in it excessively.

and after doing this for a while my grades did improve and i started to get my act together. (in fact now the consoles are out all the time and my computer time isn't limited because i know to put school first. as well as not spending forever on the computer (or at least most of the time)).

whatever you do though, always remember there are people who care about you, a lot, even outside your family. people that believe in you. c: